Read The Half Blood Luna by The Black Daisy
“You’re his son” I whispered again in shocked disbelief. That was one hell of a twisted revelation. I married alpha Grey’s son!
No, no he is not his son. Not really. He is alpha Mathew’s son. He is good and kind. He is nothing even remotely like Grey.
He battled with many demons of his past, but he is not cruel like him, he is not cold and sad*stic like he was. His mother was abused like me. Until his father saved her life, just like he saved mine by K*lling alpha Grey and beta Sam releasing me from my torment and giving me my freedom.
I could never hate him for being his son, because he simply wasn’t. He was alpha Mathew’s, through and through.
I look up at him and find a tear falling down his face. As it fell down his face, I felt my own heart fall along with it. My chest tightened as I saw fear plain on his face for the first time. He was scared of losing me. Scared of me flinching away from him and hating him again. Scared of me looking at him and seeing his biological father in his place.
I let go of his hand, and watch his lips start to tremble as a sob threatens to escape from him.
He really loved me with his whole heart. While I was doubtful about his feelings towards me from the beginning, I could clearly see it now, because he finally let me in. Especially after what he just said. He didn’t need to say ‘I love you’ because it was all over his face and in between his words.
I was so surprised with how deeply I affected him from the beginning. How much I actually healed him and chased away his sorrow. How much he came to love me when I thought it impossible for him to get over Kate and ever love me with the same passion. He never showed it to me before now, but all his feelings towards me were felt from the beginning. He was just too scared to confess them to me, even to himself.
I understood all of his emotions because I felt exactly the same way. I was battling my own demons, my own sorrow, and my own fears. He, Joseph, and Sara helped me fight back and trust someone else other than myself for the first time. They helped me get out of my darkness.
I loved him too, I realized. I was falling for him so hard but I wasn’t aware if it because I’ve never loved anyone before. Because I never wanted to love anyone.
Because loving meant touching and other things that were always a*s*sociated with pain and self loathing for me. I wasn’t sure I’ll ever be able to get past that trauma.
I stare at his broken expression. And I have no idea how to make him believe me. How to let him know that I feel the same way, that I will always stand by him and love him unconditionally. How do I make him believe me?
I quickly cup his face tenderly with both of my hands and say something I have never said to anyone before in my life; other than Joseph and Sara. Three words that will instantly relieve most of his pain, fear, and doubt.
I whisper affectionately “I love you.”
He looks at me in complete surprise. It was the last thing he was expecting me to say. He was preparing himself to hear the worst when he heard the complete opposite.
“Say it again,” he said with vulnerability.
“I. Love. You. Klaus Morgan. And there is nothing and no one that can make me change my mind about loving you. You’re stuck with me and you will not get rid of me that easily,” I said tenderly.
I saw pain cross his features as he said “But I hurt you so much Ella, I punished you and commanded you, how can you look at me without seeing him? How can you be sure that I will not turn into him? Even I am not that sure of myself.”
I looked at him determinedly while still holding his face with both hands, “You were hurting Klaus. You were grieving and struggling with your own loss that you lost control of yourself then. I’ve forgiven you for the things you did to me before, and I meant it. What you did to me had nothing to do with being related to him, I need you to believe that wholeheartedly. I’ve seen your regret many times and I’ve felt it to my c0re. That is something that you and Grey can never have in common. He never regretted what he did to me. On the contrary, he reveled in causing my pain every single night, he felt so proud of himself for inflecting it. Let me ask you something, did you enjoy punishing me? Did it satisfy you? How much ple@sure did it make you feel?”
His face turned full of revulsion and horror as he touched my hands, shook his head violently, and said in terror, “Ella every single whip that I hit you with made my heart scream in pain and agony. I felt completely disgusted! I felt so horrible and loathed myself every single day after that. Even though you have forgiven me Ella, I will never forgive myself for what I made you go through and feel.”
“Then there is the answer to your question. That’s how I know you are nothing like him and can never become like him. That’s how you can be sure that you are undoubtedly, with heart and soul and blood, Klaus Mathew Morgan. And your children; our children, will carry the Morgan name just like their pure hearted father. You once told me that blood origins must not define you. You define yourself with your own actions Klaus not someone else’s. You saw past what my father did to your family, and still loved me for who I am. How do you expect me to hate you in return, just because of your father?”
I saw his expression darken and his eyes avoiding me. I furrowed my eyebrows at his weird reaction to my question.
“What?” I asked in confusion.
“You’re right. Only you can decide who you can be. Regardless of everyone around you,” he said ambiguously.
I felt like there was something he was trying so hard to hide from me.
“Is there something else you’re not telling me?” I asked warily.
He avoided my eyes again, and now I was certain there was something else.
“You can tell me Klaus. I can take it, whatever it is… is it about my grandfather? Did he tell you about him?”
He looked at me in anguish and said, “I don’t want to hide anything from you, but I also don’t want to lie to you. Can you please give me until tomorrow? Just until tomorrow and you will know everything I promise. I am too wrecked and torn to tell you everything Daniel said to me now.”
I nodded my head in agreement. I can wait one more day to find out the truth. He is right, he’s been through enough already.
“Come here,” I said gently.
I bring him close to my chest and play with his hair. We slowly lay down on the sofa together, holding each other, his head on the top of my chest as I run my fingers through his hair in a soothing manner.
A long time passes as we begin to surrender to sleep.
“I love you too Ella” I heard him whisper sleepily in a low voice.
I tightened my arms around him in response, as we both drifted off to sleep.